Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Please, Oh Please...

"Don't ask what the world needs. Rather ask: What makes you come alive?
Then go and do it
Because what the world needs is people who have come alive."
~Howard Thurman

I'm struggling here. Today's my first official day of summer vacation.

But sadly, I'm not busy vacationing. Oh no...unfortunately not. I've been up studying since 7:00.

Don't get me wrong, I love, love, love to learn. But, I'm not really learning anything. I'm going through the motions- memorizing terms, creating neunomic devices, cramming to forget. I truly believe I'd be learning more by sitting down with my books or teaching myself a new stitch or even writing in my journal. I'm really conflicted- like in a serious way. We won't even talk about the thousands of dollars I'm paying to be so miserable.

As I sit at my desk and force myself to "learn" this ridiculous "stuff," my eyes constantly fall upon all the inspirational, creative outlets surrounding me. I have so much to blog about and tons of things I want to make and hundreds of projects I'm ready to embark on.

I'm trying to be positive~ honestly. I really try to find the silver lining in this rotten situation. But, I'll admit, It's a dozy. I'm not too happy, and that, in itself, just makes me sad. I mean, I'm all for sacrifice, but I'm just not seeing it today.

I keep trying to remind myself of how lucky I am to be an educated woman.

And with that final though, I'll be more grateful. I'll try a bit harder. I'll be a tad more optimistic.

1 comment:

Maria said...

Hopefully classes will be done soon and you can enjoy yourself. Maybe I can meet you one morning at Starbucks for a cup of java. I miss seeing your smiling face every morning at 9:15! Good luck with all your tests and papers.

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