Signs

"Don't wish it were easier. Wish you were better."

~ Unknown

For about a week I pondered a major decision; a decision I didn't want to make. It was one of those times when I wished someone else would have made it for me, taken the pressure off, and been left holding the bag of blame when things went wrong.

But alas, those tough decisions, those ones that pull at the heart and mind and soul, are usually shouldered by the individual. They're the ones that stimulate personal growth and test character.

Sometimes though, I'm not much in the mood for a character test. Or a lesson in strength. I'd rather grow my herbs or knit a coffee sweater or read a book. Plus, I'm kinda getting into something new, too. And, I'd really like some time to dabble in that as well, ya know?

So, I've been conflicted. It's nothing major, in the scheme of things. It's probably nothing at all to most people- complete pettiness, really. But I really want to get Life right. I don't want those silly regrets or those 'what ifs' hanging around.

As a way of helping me figure things out, I rely on signs. Silly, I know, but that's what I do. I look for them and they guide me, most often-times, in the right direction. But this "sign-finding"-- it takes patience and time. Just last week, however, I saw my sign. I received my answer. And although it wasn't the answer I really wanted, it's the right answer. The correct one. The harder of my two options.

I'm rather baffled at how the "wrong" answer is actually the "right" one. But, it is. I feel very confident and at peace about it. I am content once again.